Catch-22 Ponderings

So, now to discuss all of the things I didn't have time to discuss in my measly, short timed writing on Catch-22. Overall, I didn't like this novel at all. Sure, there were some times where I chuckled to myself as I read it, and other times that I truly did get to think about life, it was too confusing and sporadic, too cynical for me to actually enjoy.
The ending of the novel took me completely by surprise. No, actually, it didn't. Heller had set Yossarian up to be a coward since the beginning of the novel, and by the time the novel was about to end, I had already suspected a kind of backed-off ending. The ending, to me, kind of symbolizes Heller's take on life. No, scratch that; the novel itself was a huge rant by Heller of his view of life. That Yossarian runs away, leaving his place of supposed responsibility and honor in the army, is significant in that first off, Yossarian, by escaping his place in the army, also escapes the corruption and hypocrisy that surrounds his position and life as a solider (more specifically, a captain). Not only does he run away from the "sure" and yet unsure death that life as a soldier offers him, he also runs away from a position of power into nothingness. As part of the army, Yossarian had only one sure thing: that he would die someday. However, he was unsure as to how he would die, something he hates about death. In running away from that unsurety and uncertainty, Yossarian defies society and the ideals that society puts forth about death. Death has always been and always be a mystery; Yossarian's wishes to know the uncertain and unknown distinguishes him from the rest of society, almost outcasting him at times. It seems that Heller wanted to--through Yossarian--point out society's ways of outcasting someone who does not conform, is not like the others. Although Yossarian is arguably the main character of the novel--after all, it does begin and end with him and centers a great deal around him--he is not necessarily the hero of the novel.
The ending of the novel seems to symbolize one's ability to walk away from one's current life in search of a new one. Much of the novel is concerned with identity--and often, a lack thereof. Yossarian seems at times to be a sort of an adolescent, angsty teen figure in that he doesn't really seem to know who he is. He wanders around causing trouble, be it getting the chaplain in trouble for signing Washington Irving or messing up the entire war by moving the bomb line, Yossarian seems to cause trouble in search for himself, in search for his own identity.
I didn't like the novel because it was confusing. But then again, life itself is confusing. Does that mean I don't like life?